Goodbye my luckless romance (L)

Soo,
Not all that much has been changing. To be honest, it's about the same as yesterday here. Hot, sunny and today, is lazy. We went shopping I got some shirts. We ate at a cafe, and got some sun. Lazing around now until later when we'll go to the old city again and possibly hit the pool. Flights tomorrow at like 2 so we'll be up and outta here by about 11. All in all, not a bad time <3 It's beautiful here. I'm sure I'll return to romantic little Dubrovnik.

Ba-Ba-Bacardi !

Alright so, today, I went down to old town dubrovnik and chilled around the town and city wall, bought a new necklace and a shirt. Took a million and 2 pictures. I miss my bestfrandssss. I got all this stuff going down, which is like, UH-WHAAAAAAAAAAAT? I'm crazy, but seriously, like I never saw this coming. NEVER. It's so weird. UHM, so yeah drinking a breezer in my borthers hotel room, wearing my new stuff and missing the besties !
xoxoxoxoxo

Whoaa-ho-ho double rainbowww !

So, I'm sitting in my hotel room, and it's been about a year or some crazy crazy time since I last posted. I'm currently in Dubrovnik Croatia where I'm on holiday with my 'mama' as they all call her here. It's crazy weather and super cheap everything. Which is awesome. I have had loads of sun and good food and time with interesting people and some who are barely clothed. I swear all the mean are in tiny little swimsuits, like, do they think it's attractive here? Mom and I might end up int he hotel spa tomorrow before the walk along the city wall ! Some petty exciting stuff around here. Anyways, all my love from sunnny croatia ! xoxoxoxoxox

I'mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Baccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk (:

           Alrighty, I'm back guys ! I know I know, JESUS JULIET, THREE MONTHS? Well I've been busy, okay? It's been a busy few months, between chem, bio, math, english, lucy & kilo I've had abou no time for anything but breathing.

          Things are moving forward quickly, like the time passing I barely feel the time sift forward, but I know I'm dwelling closer to the ever looming grade twelve. I'm much too nervous about my future. It's nerve racking, terrifying even. I'm not sure how it'll work out, I don't think I'm realistic enough. Blech, future.

          Music makes me very nostalgic, I find I think much too much about the past lately. I'm sort of stuck there, waiting to figure out how to pull out of it, and blast into the here and now. I'm still with Kilo, 4 and a half months strong. He's really the best part of my day, the only thing that keeps me grounded. I love you. Anyways, back to music, lots of trading yesterday, lots of hedley. Not much else actually. I'm back to my usual two-four workouts a week, which makes me happy, because I super need the workout. My muscles were starting to get weak again. So back to the iron. Though, if i didn't have to get up at 530, I might be a bit more compliant.

        Not much else is going on, growing up, getting more into my art, and music. I'm excited for the summer, and I really wish it would HURRY THE FUCK UP. Please and thanks? (:

Forever yours, 
Juliet xo.

                                                         13.11.09 <3 (:

Would You Mind If I Pretended...

Sorry I haven't really posted in a while, I'm not in much of a conversation mood lately.

I think I need to talk to my dear Cliche, I'm not very happy lately. I have some stuff I need to get off my chest, but again, thats not to be written here.

Christmas is going well, got some presents under the tree, and in three days I can unwrap them .
I should call my mom, but it keeps getting put off. My birthday was fine, and I really want a party, but I'll have to wait for after the holidays. I should talk to dad about it. I'm taking to Kilo, and his friend, whose very entertaining.

I left myphone at his place and it's killing me I have no way to text people. I shouldn't be so dependant on my technology,  but sadly, I am.

Anyways, much luck to my big brother with this job interview he has tomorrow.

Merry Christmas guys, love you (: <3

Juliet xo.

The Best Part Of Me Was Always You.

' Your the glue for the pieces

of the picture I thought I lost  ' 

 So, today was interesting. Day started off rather badly, I was tired & kinda cranky >_< but I think physics, for one, actually cheered me up. It was all going badly, it was boring and our lab was to WATCH WATER BOIL. WTF IS WRONG WITH OUR TEACHER? But then I was nexted who I will refer to as Oven-Mitt Man and Burner Boy. They're both HIGHLY entertaining people. Then math, where I did little to nothing just watch the clock & space out, my thoughts have been rather distracted. Too much homework & things to think about, ick. Co-op was busy, I had a bunch of charts to pull as yesterday I was back logged a day and then on top of MY jobs, flower was off sick again, and I had to do HER charts too. All weeks worth >_>.

After school I met up with BT2 who in turn got to meet Kilo, which was interesting xD. He seemed to win BT2 over quite well. She seemed impressed (: but honestly, he's such a sweet guy I don't know many people who WOULD dislike him. When BT2 left, I went over to meet Kilo's mom & sisters. They're both really cute kids, and much older/taller than I'd imagined. But they seem cool. They both got my number and have been texting me xD Quite amusing. They're pretty good at embarassing Kilo too, which I find GREAT. His mom was rather busy, which was unfortunate as I'd loved to have gotten to know her. She seems really nice though. It's nice to see I could at least win over half his family. Kilo walked me to the bus, oh hurray for being a teenager >_> I need wheels guys, like really really badly. Either way, the night ended really well, and now I'm sitting here, thinking. Sucks I don't get to see him till this weekend now. He'll be missed D: 

OH OH ! But , good news, in about 2 weeks we have our semi & my dads agree'd to buy my ticket & a new dress :D I'm rather excited :3 Not sure what to do for my birthday. I want a HUGE party but *sighs* I don't think thats going to happen.

Love, as always, 

Juliet xo.

Okay Miss S, Here's your update.

Hello everyone, once again.

I'm bad with keeping this blog up to date, which is rather unfortunate, but I'd like to mention to http://rawrimadinosawr.blogspot.com that Klutz-E has actually updated his dA, and it's rather long. So enjoy.

I'd like to bring it to everyones attention this...

http://danceintherainxo.blogspot.com

I have a new art blog & It's up and running, enjoy :D

So, yes S, I do have a boyfriend, yes, he's great, heres the update, he's still as awesome as before. I don't have all that much to say, but he is very different then I thought he'd be, but then again, he's mentioned that too. Idk, I'm just very content with life right now. No need to worry since I'm not posting much.

My dad should be home wednesday, which will be nice & I'm quite busy cleaning after my wonderful brother totalled the house :P Well that's unfair, he didn't reallllly, he just hates dishes.

Anyways, I'm off to meet riley, it's been a hella long time & I miss her.

So check my other blog out & send me a message sometime !

Juliet xo.

LetsMakeItRealBeforeWe'reDead (LL)

Today's the day we finally say... <3

So, I really have to thank Rainy for texting me and telling me to get my ass back to my blog. It's been a while.

So, No word from me in a very long time & I feel the need to talk to everyone.

There have been a lot of complicates to life lately, *sighs*

Basically, Lost someone important to me a while ago, I tried to make contact a few times, maybe I didn't try insanely hard, but he obviously doesn't care enough to answer my messages, so he doesn't want to talk to me. I miss him, but it's his call now. Then the happier part to this, I met someone, he's really quite epic. I'm glad I met him, he's become a happier part of my day & genuinely seems to care about me. He has this great taste in music & wants to play one of my favorite songs for me :D

Well, since he won't read this before friday anyways, I made him a mix CD tonight, which turned out awesome.

In other news, I handed out resumes today and hope to end up with a good job. We'll see. Uhm, school and coop are quite okay, nothing new to report except the 92% i got on my project today :D

Thats basically it for now, lifes going to be okay, it seems.

juliet xo.

I'll be on the top just watching you fall (8)

It's like drowning but being able to breathe. It's like dieing but feeling alive. It's like running down the street knowing if you come back you'll never live it down but coming back anyways. It's like sitting in the road knowing a car is coming. It's like watching a train rush by and feeling the wind. That is exactly how I feel.

Its this feeling I can't describe where no mater how I try I can't stand up, can't fall down, can't force a smile & can't shed a tear. I don't know. I don't KNOW. I can't control the feeling and I can't make it happen it's every part of me suddenly losing control. It's a feeling, of being overwhelmed.

The past seven days I have felt like this and you know what, today, ef it, I don't feel like being like this anymore. I'm tired of myself & tired of how I've been acting. I want to be me again, I need to do a total overhaul of my life again, and when it's time to start again, alot of things have to happen.

But yeah, basically thats been me this week, take it or leave it.

Juliet

xo.

So baby keep my heart beat b-beat beating.

For some reason I keep believing...



Okay, so, fuck this.
You have actually started making me so fucking angry lately. Like, really. Your being selfish and then fuck around making me feel bad. I'm really really done with how your acting lately. Fuck you. You can put the pieces together again, I'm not trying this time, I don't think you even understand that I've lost all interest in what your saying.

On a much happier note, tonight was great.
Sitting in a field, drinking an ED, listening to music watching a sunset.
It's the littlest things you do that make a day great & you really did brighten mine. We don't always get along but your here now and that's all that counts hun (:

Coop super. dislikes me and I have a feeling she'll continue to hate me until I leave in a few months but I did like alot of the staff there, they really made me welcome. Now I just have to remember the three hundred names.

Anyways,
That was just a short update.

Juliet.
xo.

Nothing Feels Better Than Hiding These Days.

Bad weekend, I've been in a weird mood all weekend.
Probably going to pass soon, today was pretty good.
Thank god for co-op.

I'm listening to some old school Hedley, literally.
It reminds me of way back, years ago, a year ago. It just reminds me of a lot of good times, and all the fun I had for the past couple years. People say high school is the best few years of your life, I kinda want to believe it. I'm having fun so far. It's nice to just do whatever I want and be able to make my own choices, not that I should sometimes. I have made a lot of mistakes in the past few years, some I really regret. Opportunities that if I had taken my life would have changed.

And we'll never get back what we
Gave away, when we still have that fire in our eyes, Don't believe everything happiness says, Nothings as real as our old reckless ways, When we drink by the fires
The burning car tires, Bad girls and good liars, The dreams we'd conspire, The days we went crazy, The nights wild and hazy, Man how in the hell did we get here?

Updates.
Friday; Cause a major traffic block, nicky nicky nine door-ed for the first time in forever. Acted like a retard. Smiled like I used to.
Saturday; Stayed home & did nothing.
Sunday; Major fights & Ridiculous dreams.
Monday; Math, Physics, Twenty minutes of Co-op and then home for 1. Laughed at small children walking into doors.

I'm not all that superstitious, but I did laugh at how sure my horoscope was that I'd be dating someone by tomorrow. Cheesey. On a side note, I found my tarot cards again (: I got a new mirror too, so I ended up having to clean my room. Stupid >_<.
Brawrs party is on the 25th, I think Kat & Riley should come down with me, she has everything under the sun there, so trust you guys are covered, we should crash there. Anyone's welcome to join the party bus, crash there, or go home, your call. Should be fun either way. Sometimes it's nice to go back about 4 years and do the things I used to do, even though back then I was more straight edge than now, I guess she made me crazy, she's almost like a drug herself. Funny how she does that. I always seem drawn to these people. Most of my friends are influences, in all different ways.

Anyways, I just felt like writting, I haven't in a long time and I miss it. I miss the days I could pour my heart out to someone, or something and it helped. So here I go again, maybe I'll blog it up more often now.

On another side note, Kanye is an asshole but people need to STOP POSTING IT ON THEIR FACEBOOK. Really guys? Honestly? Stfu. I did like one status though 'Kanye how could you be so heartless?' lmfao. Fail kanye, fail.

I should be doing my homework. I'm not very motivated. Okay. I'll get off of blogger, I swear.

Love you always,

Juliet xo.

Guess whose back with a brand new rap...

...got everybody in the club going wack. (8)

OKAY SO .
I"M HOME.
The plane trip sucked, really, like, the people beside me were annoying, there was so much turbulence I thought I might die and the food tasted WORSE than usual. Is that possible? Bah whatever I'm home now so it's all good. UHM, i took hundreds of pictures, so that was kinda fun and I got a new camera which is absolutely GORGEOUS. I'm going to see miss cliche today and see the jonas brothers, YES, I know. They suck, but it's something to do right? :P Baha, oh well, I like them in concert and it's just the experience of being there thats sort of fun. So school starts soon and I really don't feel like going back, mostly since I've started to feel rather old. Ick. And then I remember I can drive, drink, smoke, or go clubbing and then I feel young again. It's weird being in grade 11, I don't really feel like I belong there. It won't be long and I'll be headed all the way to University, isn't THAT a scary thought?Oh well, life comes at you fast and you just gotta live it. Uhm, dad got married which obviously was good because he gave me money when he came home so obviously he's stoked about being married again. He has a new ring which I actually approve of, I like it. Silver with a gold band in the middle. I still haven't seen the wedding pictures but I heard Chanda was an hour and a half late so, great impression there obviously :P Mom says next year during spring break my brothers and I will join mum on a cruise which will be WICKED, I'll get to see Hong Kong and all sorts of places I've never been which I think I'll like, lots of pictures obviously and stuff so anyways, life's good at the moment, HotChocolate will be home on the 3rd, but I probably won't see him till school starts, what a bummer. I guess it just means we'll have more to sy when we do see each other. Okay so that's the haps', I'm heading off now, so, much love.

Always,

Juliet xxxxx.

The Happenings.

Right, so, new stuff? Blogging.

HM.
Well I'm still at moms bestfriends house, we're leaving a few hours, unfortunately. I totally love this family, they're all really funny and they all love to talk, plus the mom just makes jokes and says stuff in accents and really uses sarcasm, I love her, exactly like myself. We get along great, I could defiantly live in this house. So now I'm just chilling here, waiting on the time to strike 12 so I have to fly out the door and get on a train. Ick. I'm updating my mp3, and checking my facebook, only a few more weeks and school starts again, feels like the summer flew by again, and I actually can't wait to try out the kids dentistry co-op which should actually work out well, but I'm not looking forward to the stupid math and science, i have so many science related courses I may just have to shoot myself. Fuck.

Okay, so, I'll be home in six days so this is what I still need to buy for people...

HC
Riley
KAT
Mem.

Yeah, i think that about does it, just gotta find little things for other people but must rememeber the boldies. (:

Okay, last thing, shout out for the Prague kids who leave tomorrow & I shall miss. Good Luckkkk guys.

Juliett. xo.

ALL MY MONSTERS....

I miss you all SO much !

RIGHT SOOOO.

I made it to england last week, and now I've gone all the way to LONDON :D
I've been shopping & I bought henna for miss riley because I know she can't use markers anymore ;) and bought some wicked clothing.

Shit, I'm gonna be hot when I get back x)

Anyways, I miss you guys & mom says hi and I'm okay & there was a lady with huge hair who sat beside me on the plane and a guy with neon pants on the plane. lololololol, we had a jewfro too. SO, hows everyone else? I MISS THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD ALREADYYYY.

HOTCHOCOLATE - Shit kid, I miss you x300, I got you a present :D so come on flipping msn while I'm still online ya dumbass.

RILEY- Missing you too, hope cottage has been fun, hug kat until she's a pancake for me !

KAT - I would suggest running from riley but she'll cach you so maybe get a plane?

CLICHE - MISSING YOU SO MUCH. YOU HAVE TO BE HOME WHEN I CALL YOU AGAIN YOU STUPID WORKAHOLIC. I'VE CALLED LIKE 50 TIMES !

Thats about it, I'll call some of you & send some of you letters soon.

You know you miss me, even if I do piss you off, you know you miss it,

xoxo, juliet.

Operation; Beautiful.

EDIT: I missed this in the last blog.

This is the highlight of my day. I found it just now and am going to start this too.

http://www.operationbeautiful.com/

ForThePeopleWhoMakeMeRiskMyLife,NotWearPants&FallOffOfSwings (L)

Well well well,

It feels like it's been forever & today has felt SO long. Probably because I've been awake since 5am. Stupid effing dragonboat.

WHY IS IT SO EARLY NOW.

Anyways, for miss cliche, HAVE FUN, relax, geez, your 15. Not like you'll marry him, just have funnnnnnn. Oh and quit worrying. For miss Rainy dot we live fairly closeeee. Do you have a cell number? I shall text you :D For miss Autumn, I really hope tyler&Jacob are alright. I'm still thinking about you hun, I promise. For HotChocolate , I doubt you read this anymore, in fact we don't talk all that much anymore, and that makes blarg sad. Don't worry guys, insider. Whatever, so I've been up since 5, and I a currently in the mood for a work out so maybe I'll head to a gym in an hour when I'm a litttllleee more awake :P.

Leave me a comment telling me about your summer ! I'm up for whatever !

TO MY BEAUTIFUL BLOGGERS (:

AUTUMNNN

I love you deary & I miss you D: Send me messages more often hun, we should catch upppp :D

RAINY DOT.

lawl. I'm a dork.
I saw your blog & you amuse me (:
lol, but yeah no, I'm not weirded out, you seem cool (: I like blogger friends. It's all good.

I'm really curious as to how far you live, cause you know... :P

TO ALL.

So here I sit, with the wonderful Cliche (: She is freaking out over some boy :P She just scoffed, but whatever we shall call him AJUJA. Lawl, okay I'll think of something better soon. I promise. Anywho, I finally know for damn sure how HotChocolate feels, which rather sucks, but yeah it's all good. Bestie suits us just as well, and I'm not like crying and dieing so it's all good (: Nice he's still around :D

25 days till I leave for jolly old england, and daddy leaves the same day for the Phils, wedding is the 15th of August & Oldest will be there so it's goooood. (:

Uhm, Yes.
Short Update but yeah (: Guys, really, you should text me.

To Girls Who Are Hard To Get Ahold Of.

ALICE.
Okay, so you are very hard to find & I can't find your blog so you know, msg me & send me the link so I can follow you. So this one is mostly for you (:
Thanks for adding me, I mean, thats what this was all about, I wanted somewhere I could vent stuff out & you know maybe if I found places to put it, people, much like you, would find it and maybe take the chance on reading it. So, I don't think your creepy in fact I'm really glad you looked & then messaged me. I'm really sorry to hear about your mom, I mean, I'm so glad she won, we all knew my stepdad wouldn't surivive, it just really sucked that I hadto watch my mom try so hard and fight so hard to save him when we all knew he couldn't be saved. She wanted to live a lie, and she lived it very happily. I promise to make sure she knows she can talk to me. If you ever need to vent about it, I'll always listen. I promise. I mean, i sort of owe it to you now :P

Okay, on to other things.

I finally have a computer for limited time again.
Hurray.

Okay, soooo.

Time for an update right?

Well, school is done.
I have offically passed gr.10. I'm feeling sort of old. I mentioned that outloud and my dad laughed at me >_<>

WTF/ I WROTE SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS.
Okay, so I don't wanna re-write the stuff it took me hours to write since i am sidetracked so i'll talk about stuff later. But yeah, i had fun with Pencil&Strings. They were great to see again and to be honest, the smile that I lost for a few months? Yeah thats back. The genuine one. I practically died from smiling too much that day. Nice to have a few more memories. Okay;

Check back later?

Juliet xo.

It's Been Forever.

So here I am, once again to vent. I thought I didn't need an outlet but looks like I'm wrong again.

So the past month has been the worst of my life. Yes, I am serious.

I unfortunately lost my step dad to his battle with cancer on Friday May 28th, life will never be the same without his laugh and his stupid jokes. He tried so hard with me, I really wish I had another chance to get to know him. I barely even know this man. I really want him to know I will miss him, especially for the person he was for my mom. I've never seen her happier, and now, I've never seen her sadder.

Then of course, there's all the fighting with my dad. Screw talking about that. It's not all that new.

And then to add to everything, I took all my frustrations out on my friends so now everyone is on edge with me. I'm fighting with people a lot, it needs to stop. I'm being stupid but so are they, if I don't even get a good shot at saying sorry without them walking away, how do I fix anything? Fuck it.

Exams are next week.
I'm not ready.

I went to wonderland on thursday, which was a great escape to adventure land with T2 & Cliche. We really had fun & I got to test out some confidence with strangers. It was fun. Haha, Ross. He was attractive.

Then friday was yoga & friend time. I love Paperclip,T1,T2 & Cliche ever so much (: THey really made my friday good when I've been having some pretty bad pity parties. It's nice having people to jam & chill with.

Then there was Dragonboat festival this weekend, where I killed myslef paddling, but I really loved. I tried so hard & had so much fun with all the girls there and the twins. Twig (Idk, I need random names now) was very entertaining, I love those guys, really (: So funny. T1 was trying really hard for me, and mini mars was a good escape, I got to help her feel better which always makes me feel better. Very comforting to know in my worst of times theres still some people there for me. I know Riley wanted to be there, and if she sees this,sorry i was kinda bitchy, you picked a shitty time. Love you hun.

And now this is getting really long,

SO, goodbye to everyone who bothered to read this and register I'm still alive.

Juliet, xo.

New day, new pictures.

So, today, and all the days before that have been all over the place. They went from terrible to amazing, to mediocre, to great, to alright, to amazing and wonderfully weird and now my head is just spinning. Honestly, too much has been going on and I kinda wish I had some to talk to about all of it. But I mean I want someone who knows the whole story and yet isn't involved in it at all and there really isn't anyone like that. No matter what they'll be involved, and there are some things I wouldn't tell anyone , flat out. Well, idk, wave&star happen to be exceptions, to a degree. Theres some stuff I would wanna say but I can't. ick. Being a confused girl is rather annoying. Time to get my head straight.

Well, vocal jazz is going great, voice dance is great. Post secret is good, I have a singing roxie behind me. I'm gonna be giving her & this other guy, lets call him Bee, vocal coaching (:

Maybe I should start charging? xD

Anywho, I should be going, maybe something more exciting will happen soon...? (:

Always,
Juliet xo.