It's like drowning but being able to breathe. It's like dieing but feeling alive. It's like running down the street knowing if you come back you'll never live it down but coming back anyways. It's like sitting in the road knowing a car is coming. It's like watching a train rush by and feeling the wind. That is exactly how I feel.
Its this feeling I can't describe where no mater how I try I can't stand up, can't fall down, can't force a smile & can't shed a tear. I don't know. I don't KNOW. I can't control the feeling and I can't make it happen it's every part of me suddenly losing control. It's a feeling, of being overwhelmed.
The past seven days I have felt like this and you know what, today, ef it, I don't feel like being like this anymore. I'm tired of myself & tired of how I've been acting. I want to be me again, I need to do a total overhaul of my life again, and when it's time to start again, alot of things have to happen.
But yeah, basically thats been me this week, take it or leave it.
Juliet
xo.
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