So here I am, once again to vent. I thought I didn't need an outlet but looks like I'm wrong again.
So the past month has been the worst of my life. Yes, I am serious.
I unfortunately lost my step dad to his battle with cancer on Friday May 28th, life will never be the same without his laugh and his stupid jokes. He tried so hard with me, I really wish I had another chance to get to know him. I barely even know this man. I really want him to know I will miss him, especially for the person he was for my mom. I've never seen her happier, and now, I've never seen her sadder.
Then of course, there's all the fighting with my dad. Screw talking about that. It's not all that new.
And then to add to everything, I took all my frustrations out on my friends so now everyone is on edge with me. I'm fighting with people a lot, it needs to stop. I'm being stupid but so are they, if I don't even get a good shot at saying sorry without them walking away, how do I fix anything? Fuck it.
Exams are next week.
I'm not ready.
I went to wonderland on thursday, which was a great escape to adventure land with T2 & Cliche. We really had fun & I got to test out some confidence with strangers. It was fun. Haha, Ross. He was attractive.
Then friday was yoga & friend time. I love Paperclip,T1,T2 & Cliche ever so much (: THey really made my friday good when I've been having some pretty bad pity parties. It's nice having people to jam & chill with.
Then there was Dragonboat festival this weekend, where I killed myslef paddling, but I really loved. I tried so hard & had so much fun with all the girls there and the twins. Twig (Idk, I need random names now) was very entertaining, I love those guys, really (: So funny. T1 was trying really hard for me, and mini mars was a good escape, I got to help her feel better which always makes me feel better. Very comforting to know in my worst of times theres still some people there for me. I know Riley wanted to be there, and if she sees this,sorry i was kinda bitchy, you picked a shitty time. Love you hun.
And now this is getting really long,
SO, goodbye to everyone who bothered to read this and register I'm still alive.
Juliet, xo.
Juliet,
ReplyDeleteYou're probably sick of hearing about how sorry people are that your stepdad died, so I won't say it.
anyways, I stumbled across your blog in the bathroom stall at the famous players, I giggled when I read your blog about putting up your blog in random places :)
I'd like to say that I like reading your blog, although I don't really know why since it's mostly about people and things I don't understand. Before, you mentioned something about wanting to vent to someone that knows the story but isn't involved, and also about wanting to keep your privacy.
if you need to vent to someone who's not involved, I can give you my e-mail.
I've been reading for a while, but and I was tempted to send somethinbg like this a while ago, but also a little scared you'd think it's creepy. : ( sorry if it is! But when I read your Stepdad died of cancer...Well, my mom has cancer. Had, actually. It's gone now but there's 50% chance of it coming back. She's not gone yet, but I think I've gone through it enough times in my mine to know what it's like.
anyways, message me back.
->Alice