I'm moving out the second I have a chance.
When I leave I will never look back, I will not miss it.
I won't even come back the day I leave.
Today proved nothing changes.
Tonight proved no matter how happy I am,
something will always go wrong and the happy will never out number the sadness.
I will not allow myself to throw everything away to become another statistic...I will not be another hormone hoped up teen who offs themselves. It's just not me. I just, I can't see anything happy at the moment. My father is the biggest jackass I know. He is a large child throwing a temper tantrum. He takes it all out on me. He doesn't seem to understand what he says and does I will never forget. I will never forget how he's treated me and just how unhappy I am. One day, he'll push me a little too far and everything he's ever said and done will either be pressed back in his face, or I will breakdown so badly even I don't know how far I'll go. Maybe I'll go stay with a couple friends for a few days, I can't handle this, even K can see how unhappy I am here. He's just trying to do his best, he knows I'm crying, he knows I'm upset, he knows it was dad who did it, he just doesn't want to intrude. He's a decent guy, I hope he gets a couple more breaks in life, he deserves them. I miss mom, but I know exactly why she left. He deserved it.
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