It's Been Forever.

So here I am, once again to vent. I thought I didn't need an outlet but looks like I'm wrong again.

So the past month has been the worst of my life. Yes, I am serious.

I unfortunately lost my step dad to his battle with cancer on Friday May 28th, life will never be the same without his laugh and his stupid jokes. He tried so hard with me, I really wish I had another chance to get to know him. I barely even know this man. I really want him to know I will miss him, especially for the person he was for my mom. I've never seen her happier, and now, I've never seen her sadder.

Then of course, there's all the fighting with my dad. Screw talking about that. It's not all that new.

And then to add to everything, I took all my frustrations out on my friends so now everyone is on edge with me. I'm fighting with people a lot, it needs to stop. I'm being stupid but so are they, if I don't even get a good shot at saying sorry without them walking away, how do I fix anything? Fuck it.

Exams are next week.
I'm not ready.

I went to wonderland on thursday, which was a great escape to adventure land with T2 & Cliche. We really had fun & I got to test out some confidence with strangers. It was fun. Haha, Ross. He was attractive.

Then friday was yoga & friend time. I love Paperclip,T1,T2 & Cliche ever so much (: THey really made my friday good when I've been having some pretty bad pity parties. It's nice having people to jam & chill with.

Then there was Dragonboat festival this weekend, where I killed myslef paddling, but I really loved. I tried so hard & had so much fun with all the girls there and the twins. Twig (Idk, I need random names now) was very entertaining, I love those guys, really (: So funny. T1 was trying really hard for me, and mini mars was a good escape, I got to help her feel better which always makes me feel better. Very comforting to know in my worst of times theres still some people there for me. I know Riley wanted to be there, and if she sees this,sorry i was kinda bitchy, you picked a shitty time. Love you hun.

And now this is getting really long,

SO, goodbye to everyone who bothered to read this and register I'm still alive.

Juliet, xo.

New day, new pictures.

So, today, and all the days before that have been all over the place. They went from terrible to amazing, to mediocre, to great, to alright, to amazing and wonderfully weird and now my head is just spinning. Honestly, too much has been going on and I kinda wish I had some to talk to about all of it. But I mean I want someone who knows the whole story and yet isn't involved in it at all and there really isn't anyone like that. No matter what they'll be involved, and there are some things I wouldn't tell anyone , flat out. Well, idk, wave&star happen to be exceptions, to a degree. Theres some stuff I would wanna say but I can't. ick. Being a confused girl is rather annoying. Time to get my head straight.

Well, vocal jazz is going great, voice dance is great. Post secret is good, I have a singing roxie behind me. I'm gonna be giving her & this other guy, lets call him Bee, vocal coaching (:

Maybe I should start charging? xD

Anywho, I should be going, maybe something more exciting will happen soon...? (:

Always,
Juliet xo.

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Well, look at that, snow in April, who woulda guessed? Oh that's right, everyone, stupid Canada. Oh and after it got tuned, and after I learned a jazz scale, my freaking [E?] string broke >_> I'm actually so pissed off. It'll be FOREVEERRR before I go and buy a new string let along have the time to tune it or whatever cuz it needs to have all the strings replaced. Urgh. She got a new celll phhoonneeee, I'm pretty happy, I can text her in the am and during school as long as she remembers her phone more often. Last weekend was really fun, more than I figured it would be. Friday I slept over with Star, and we talked and everything for like, hoursssss. It was nice, then I ended up at a band gig with the infamous Wave. Yes, I revamped all the nicknames for thins in past and whatever, they're okay. But yeah, we saw this band, which we had more fun making fun of than actually listening but still, I think the night was overall pretty good (: Wave seemed to be in such a good mood which was nice, always keeps me in a good mood too. I got a bandie's signature on my arm, which was, interesting to say the least, I'm curious as to where the alter ego came from that night. So not me. As you saw above, I have a picture of the club we went to to see the band, and the ridiculous guy we made fun of who kept mentioning 'The Teens' upstairs (x. Uhm, then I had pool paddle and the usual Sunday until about 4 when I went to Stars church thing, and met a bunch of cousins. It was sweeeeet. I love her family. So much. I should go add that girl on my Facebook now that I think of it. Hmm, then school monday, ick and school today, double ick. I had no sleep lately, which is probably why I feel so bitchy lately, I should take a nap. I wish it was sunny, I've been in the mood for a run since yesterday but I had toooooo much to do last night.

Anyways, I should really do something productive, like ACTUALLY clean my room. It got mesy again, not that it was ever that clean to begin with. Oh well, time to feung Shui my room to pieces until I like how it looks again. I think I'mma have to move everythng around, so, Bye for now.

As always,

Juliet xo.