To Girls Who Are Hard To Get Ahold Of.

ALICE.
Okay, so you are very hard to find & I can't find your blog so you know, msg me & send me the link so I can follow you. So this one is mostly for you (:
Thanks for adding me, I mean, thats what this was all about, I wanted somewhere I could vent stuff out & you know maybe if I found places to put it, people, much like you, would find it and maybe take the chance on reading it. So, I don't think your creepy in fact I'm really glad you looked & then messaged me. I'm really sorry to hear about your mom, I mean, I'm so glad she won, we all knew my stepdad wouldn't surivive, it just really sucked that I hadto watch my mom try so hard and fight so hard to save him when we all knew he couldn't be saved. She wanted to live a lie, and she lived it very happily. I promise to make sure she knows she can talk to me. If you ever need to vent about it, I'll always listen. I promise. I mean, i sort of owe it to you now :P

Okay, on to other things.

I finally have a computer for limited time again.
Hurray.

Okay, soooo.

Time for an update right?

Well, school is done.
I have offically passed gr.10. I'm feeling sort of old. I mentioned that outloud and my dad laughed at me >_<>

WTF/ I WROTE SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS.
Okay, so I don't wanna re-write the stuff it took me hours to write since i am sidetracked so i'll talk about stuff later. But yeah, i had fun with Pencil&Strings. They were great to see again and to be honest, the smile that I lost for a few months? Yeah thats back. The genuine one. I practically died from smiling too much that day. Nice to have a few more memories. Okay;

Check back later?

Juliet xo.

It's Been Forever.

So here I am, once again to vent. I thought I didn't need an outlet but looks like I'm wrong again.

So the past month has been the worst of my life. Yes, I am serious.

I unfortunately lost my step dad to his battle with cancer on Friday May 28th, life will never be the same without his laugh and his stupid jokes. He tried so hard with me, I really wish I had another chance to get to know him. I barely even know this man. I really want him to know I will miss him, especially for the person he was for my mom. I've never seen her happier, and now, I've never seen her sadder.

Then of course, there's all the fighting with my dad. Screw talking about that. It's not all that new.

And then to add to everything, I took all my frustrations out on my friends so now everyone is on edge with me. I'm fighting with people a lot, it needs to stop. I'm being stupid but so are they, if I don't even get a good shot at saying sorry without them walking away, how do I fix anything? Fuck it.

Exams are next week.
I'm not ready.

I went to wonderland on thursday, which was a great escape to adventure land with T2 & Cliche. We really had fun & I got to test out some confidence with strangers. It was fun. Haha, Ross. He was attractive.

Then friday was yoga & friend time. I love Paperclip,T1,T2 & Cliche ever so much (: THey really made my friday good when I've been having some pretty bad pity parties. It's nice having people to jam & chill with.

Then there was Dragonboat festival this weekend, where I killed myslef paddling, but I really loved. I tried so hard & had so much fun with all the girls there and the twins. Twig (Idk, I need random names now) was very entertaining, I love those guys, really (: So funny. T1 was trying really hard for me, and mini mars was a good escape, I got to help her feel better which always makes me feel better. Very comforting to know in my worst of times theres still some people there for me. I know Riley wanted to be there, and if she sees this,sorry i was kinda bitchy, you picked a shitty time. Love you hun.

And now this is getting really long,

SO, goodbye to everyone who bothered to read this and register I'm still alive.

Juliet, xo.